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Dreaming and Writing

I had my worst recurring anxiety dream last night, with some ugly variations on it, and started my day with a heart-pounding anxiety that no matter what I did today it wouldn't be enough. Luckily I was aware of the fact that this was only a feeling I had, and although it had a physical component too, I could at least try to shift it rather than just running around like a doomed headless chicken.

What my body wanted me to do was start gouging away at the worst-feeling things on my to-do list. Market myself whether I felt up to it or not. Beg and plead for reviews, because dear God, my last release is a sinking ship. Do all the crap stuff I should be saving for throwaway times in the day. And I didn't do any of that. I did a meditation to help calm myself down, then I gently suggested to myself that I open up my work in progress and see if I could write.

I did write. I liked what I wrote, which is always a relief. I feel good now, and that weird feeling of impending failure is just a little echo.

All I can really control is my frame of mind, so heck, I might as well try. It feels a lot better than to be the weirdo who scrambled around all day feeling helpless.

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marasmine
Mar. 13th, 2015 03:22 pm (UTC)
Glad you got the day back under control. And Yay! for writing that you like.
jordan_c_price
Mar. 13th, 2015 03:51 pm (UTC)
It seems to be an ongoing process to stay in the positive place, not like a destination that once you get there you're there for good.
marasmine
Mar. 14th, 2015 06:39 pm (UTC)
I think you should turn that into a fridge magnet. It certainly ought to be on my fridge. I shall have to think about that light bulb moment - being in a positive place requires constant reinforcement (work). Duh!
deborak
Mar. 13th, 2015 06:38 pm (UTC)
Nicely handled! I'm in that "twitchy" zone where I'm waiting for the paperback proof of my next book to show up on my doorstep. So many things I want to do re: promotion but I have to wait and confirm that the volume is good to go first.
hanarobi
Mar. 13th, 2015 07:29 pm (UTC)
Dude. You are supposed to write about Vic, not let him live in your head!
wedschilde
Mar. 14th, 2015 11:47 am (UTC)
We need a road trip. *nods*
thrace_adams
Mar. 14th, 2015 06:08 pm (UTC)
I HATE HATE HATE when dreams make you wake up in the wrong mood :((( It is the WORST feeling.

Good for you for meditating and writing - GOOD FOR YOU.

I'm saving this post, because it is full of GOOD THINGS

<333
Katherine
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